This dark figure makes me cry harder than usual. It says things that makes my heart turn black and broken down. I start to have breakdowns and people start asking me if I'm okay. I'll just say that I'm fine but, in reality that's not true. This figure turned my brain and heart into a ticking time bomb. It knows that if one more thing hurts me I'll do the only thing that will get me out of this prison, which is to end it all. This figure always ties itself around my neck and suffocates me. It follows me every where and it always has something 'nice' to say. It's better to keep this feeling to myself so no one would be worried about me, I doubt someone cares about me. My life is sitting on the edge of the cliff and it's trying to hold tight but, for how long can it hold on.........

Sometimes I think that my family is drifting away from each other. There has been problems and it makes it harder to stick together. I wish this was just a dream but I guess that can't happen.

Some times I think about a year that changed me and gave me different emotions. My mom always told me to go forward but, I look back to that once clean smooth road, now cracked, destroyed and abandoned.  I found some one and they were worried where I went and happy to see me again. I still think about the other two, especially to that one being that I made a promise to but, I guess I broke it.